So much for not getting Archer… I went to the Humane Society to check him out.

The woman that worked with me was named Alex, same as my son.  I kind of took that as a sign.   When I went into the dog area to take a look, Archer was the only one that made eye contact and just made it clear he wanted contact.

We took Archer into a side room so we could get to know him and he was nervous but good.  Deal.

Archer came home and once he settled down things were great.  He has been very loving and protective and he listens well to Alex.  He appears potty trained, knows sit, lay down, stay and a few other basics.  I think we have a good match.

Check out the Rainier Beer “R” logo on his nose.


Maybe Maybe

A friend pointed out a dog on the Tacoma Humane Society web site named Archer.

I am interested but man it feels too soon.  I love the look of Archer, but not sure if I want to go down that road right now.

I am feeling better and things are kind of returning to normal.  I still feel like I am on auto pilot a bit, I guess that is normal.


Long Nights

Nothing feels right since we let Niko go.  Nothing.

I came home from work today and was not thinking, just reacting, and I went to the back door to let Niko in… but he was not there.  I just stood there.  Lost it.  Crying.

14 years of having a companion like that was just ripped away and I am angry.

It does not feel real to me yet, or maybe it does and that is why I am so upset.  I am sure there are people out there that think it is silly to be upset over a dog and I get it, but he was the one constant thing in my life that never let me down.  Niko got me through some of the worst times of my life and now it is all gone.

I don’t have Alex the first half of the week so the house it quiet.

Friends are trying to get me back to dating and I am not sure I am up for it.  Everyone tells me to try a dating site but frankly, I find that kind of creepy.  I would rather just be alone and let something happen if it is meant to be.  I don’t NEED a relationship, but it would be nice to have someone to hang out with once in a blue moon.

Niko Update

Niko is having a tough night.

The tumor has almost closed his eye and the eye is getting harder to clean.  He has been slow and tired all night, even after a large meal of leftover pot roast.

I am trying to keep him fed and his weight up, but I am fighting a losing battle.  The cancer is just eating his entire body and I am shocked at how fast this has happened.

He does not appear to be in pain and is not giving me the signal that he is hurting.  He is just… tired.

I will know when the time is right to let go.  It will be soon.