Hold My Beer

2020 – COVID/Election/Vaccine protests
2021 – COVID/Lockdowns/Vaccine mandate protests/January 6th attack
2022 – COVID/Trucker Convoy protest/Russian invades Ukraine

The world feels like a mess.

I lived through the Cold War and remember watching The Day After. The thought of a nuclear war happening was always in the back of my throughout middle and high school until the USSR collapsed and the wall came down.

I haven’t felt that way in 35 years. Until now. It feels like the situation in the Ukraine is spinning out of control and my fear is this would spill into Poland and trigger a NATO response. Will it happen? I sure hope not, but the possibility remains.

Locally things have been spinning out of control. Crime is crazy and it feels lawless in my city. The police spent the better part of 2021 ‘hands off’ due to an interpretation of a law signed by our Governor designed to hold law enforcement officers accountable.

Coming out of the COVID restrictions has been telling. People are, for lack of a better word, feral. People have forgotten how to communicate and be respectful to each other. Instant anger and confrontation happening.

We’ve lost the ability to be decent humans. There are still glimpses of this but it is rare now and I am trying to remain positive and lead by example for my son.

My job is still stressful. Working from home for two years has been a blessing and a curse. I love the flexibility provided, but I need to learn how to disconnect. I’ve fallen into the trap of always being available and it is impacting my mental and physical health in a negative way. I have bene eating poorly, gained weight and fall into a bad mental place often.

Working on those things to get back on track now.

I miss travel more than anything right now and a month long trip somewhere feels out of reach.

My son is growing up so fast and I love him with every fiber of my being. He is so talented and beautiful inside and out. Being a father and raising him has been the highlight of my life and I hope he understands that when he is older and can reflect back on our time together long after I am gone.

6 Months Later..

264,723,339 cases globally with 5.2 Million deaths. The United States counts just under 50 Million cases with 800k dead. We’ve gone from Delta to a new Omicron variant. Boosters are recommended.

I’ve been busy with work, more than I ever have in my career and it is taking a toll.

Maybe a career change? I really don’t know yet. I love the type of work I do when it fits and I have new leadership with potential positive changes ahead but there is never a guarantee.

I have plenty to be thankful for right now. I’ve grown quite a bit the past two years and have worked hard removing old habits and mental blocks from childhood bullshit. I no longer feel guilty about everything and have invested in self care..

My son started high school this year and watching him grow as a person is an amazing journey. He’s found his tribe! He actually likes school!

We are planning some travel this year now that it feels safer to travel. I would love to spend a solid 3-4 weeks in Greece and I’m already looking into where and when.

I turn 53 next week. Birthdays are not my thing so I intend to keep it low key.


189 Million cases, 4 million deaths globally. 34 Million cases, 600k deaths in the US.

The United States looks to be flattening out around 50% fully vaccinated. Delta variant is hammering the unvaccinated folks. Delta+ is emerging in other countries now.

I’ve had one small lingering side effect from the Pfizer vaccine. My left arm (where I got the injection) will randomly tingle at times and feels like a fresh jab. It’s weird. Other than that I feel good.

We are fully open here in Washington State and it has been interesting. We spent a week at the beach and mask use was a mixed bag. I am still not comfortable in large crowds right now because I have no idea who is vaccinated or not, plus my son is not vaccinated so we have to be careful.

Things are slowly feeling “normal” again.

Vaccine Side Effects

I am a week pas vaccine number 1 (Pfizer) and feeling pretty good. The only lingering issue has to do with taste. I still cannot taste anything unless there is a heavy or strong flavor.

I was tired for several days and slept through most of that, with a few headaches and sore arm for a day or two.

Interested to see how I handle the second dose. My understanding is that my post vaccine symptoms point to the fact that I probably had COVID before we knew what COVID was.

In December of 2019 I traveled for work to an AWS event in Las Vegas. Roughly 7-10 days after returning I dropped. I haven’t been that sick in years. Cough, rattle in my lungs, unable to breathe with fever and fatigue. Was tested for flu and came back negative. The thought at the time was I suffered from Pneumonia. I ended up severely sick for 6-8 weeks before finally recovering. I felt like someone was sitting on my chest the entire time and taking a breath was brutal.

Second dose coming up soon. Will see how it goes.

Day Two/Three

Some follow up on my side effects from the vaccine on days two and three.

Day two sucked. Fever, sore arm and then I lost the ability to taste. My mouth has a copper taste to everything, and nothing tastes right.

Day three and I am still really tired and my taste is still off. Fever is down.