Nov 042013

Nothing feels right since we let Niko go.  Nothing.

I came home from work today and was not thinking, just reacting, and I went to the back door to let Niko in… but he was not there.  I just stood there.  Lost it.  Crying.

14 years of having a companion like that was just ripped away and I am angry.

It does not feel real to me yet, or maybe it does and that is why I am so upset.  I am sure there are people out there that think it is silly to be upset over a dog and I get it, but he was the one constant thing in my life that never let me down.  Niko got me through some of the worst times of my life and now it is all gone.

I don’t have Alex the first half of the week so the house it quiet.

Friends are trying to get me back to dating and I am not sure I am up for it.  Everyone tells me to try a dating site but frankly, I find that kind of creepy.  I would rather just be alone and let something happen if it is meant to be.  I don’t NEED a relationship, but it would be nice to have someone to hang out with once in a blue moon.

 Posted by at 6:28 pm
Nov 032013

Niko was euthanized yesterday at 1pm.

The tumor had a small scrape and started to bleed.  by the time we made it to the vet it was bleeding a little from his mouth as well.

This was a long, heartbreaking day.  My eyes hurt from crying and my house feels empty.

R.I.P. my friend, hope we see each other again.


 Posted by at 1:33 am
Nov 012013

Niko is having a tough night.

The tumor has almost closed his eye and the eye is getting harder to clean.  He has been slow and tired all night, even after a large meal of leftover pot roast.

I am trying to keep him fed and his weight up, but I am fighting a losing battle.  The cancer is just eating his entire body and I am shocked at how fast this has happened.

He does not appear to be in pain and is not giving me the signal that he is hurting.  He is just… tired.

I will know when the time is right to let go.  It will be soon.

 Posted by at 8:18 pm
Nov 012013

Our neighborhood typically has a solid turnout for Halloween.   This year it was over the top!

One neighbor reported 383 kids.  That is a huge number for an area considered lower income in the South end of Tacoma.

We had a neighbor convert one of his empty homes into a massive walk through haunted house.  The house was complete with flaming skulls, animated creatures and scary things that jumped at us from all angles.  It was impressive and everyone loved it.

Several neighbors provided warm cider and hot chocolate for parents as they escorted children door to door.

I would estimate that at least 2/3 of the homes we visited had someone dressed in costume as they answered the door to hand out candy, all of them hamming it up and having fun.

The most impressive thing?  I never heard a cry or a child be rude.  I heard nothing but “thank you” and “please” and laughs to last a lifetime.  This is what Halloween should be like and I am glad I live in a neighborhood willing to make it fun.

I spent a few weeks working on a costume for Alexander so he could dress as his favorite character from Minecraft.  I was working up to the last minute but finally finished in time for Alex to roam the streets as Steve!  The costume was a hit, with parents and children screaming “STEEEEVE!” when we walked past.   Alex was over the moon and I was a proud father.

Minecraft Costume

 Posted by at 1:42 pm
Oct 302013

Niko is slowing down each day.

The tumor has grown to a point that I am afraid it will open up. That is a huge concern right now. He is eating but the cancer is eating him faster.

When I pet him I can feel the bones in his skull, his neck feels thin and I can feel his spine. His breathing is still normal and I don’t hear anything unusual there.

The tumor has almost closed his right eye.  I expect it to be closed by the end of the week.  I have been keeping it clean and wiping gunk out of his eye.   The tumor feels like it is growing out, not in which is actually better.  Had it started to grow inwards he would be unable to eat.

Things have been quiet this week. I am putting the finishing touches on Alexanders Minecraft costume tonight. We are planning a group Trick or Treat in our neighborhood, complete with a full blown haunted house provided by a neighbor. This is going to be a spectacular Halloween for the kids.

Niko and tumor

 Posted by at 12:50 pm